There is thing called "revenge bedtime procrastination". Its a thing for people to refuse to sleep because they dont really have much control over their daytime-life. So they will sleep very very late at night or just not sleep at all until dawn, even tough they are super tired cause they dont want their free time to end and tomorrow to start. A kind of people that hate tomorrow so bad, or lost in their wild thoughts and such.
Ive been thinking a lot these past few nights. Not because i love to
think, no one loves it i guess, not in the "a.m" at least. Someone might
say that its better to sleep before 2 in the morning. because nothing
comes good after that, well i agree. Every little pain and hurtful comments you have heard in your entire life are comes and drown you alive. Mockeries from past elementary school that you never remember before, are suddenly hits you like a real pro. Everything in you just pure fallacy, its weighing you down, and you are in pain, you wish for this hurting to go end, a misery you can no longer bear, an agony state you are in.
You spent countless nights to escape your own thought, secretly hoping that tonight ends early, but wishing for tomorrow to never comes..
Cry if you want to
I won't tell you not to
I wont try to cheer you up
I'll just be here if you want me
Its no use in keeping a stiff upper lip
You can weep
You can sleep
You can loosen your grip
You can frown
You can drown and go down with the ship
You cry if you want to
Dont ever apologize venting your pain
Its something to me you dont need to explain
I dont need to know why
I dont think its insane
You can cry if you want to
The windows are closed
The neighbors arent home
If its better with me than to do it alone
I'll draw all the curtains and unplug the phone
You can cry if you want to
You can stare at the ceiling and tear at your hair
Swallow your feelings and stager and swear
You could show things and throw things and i wouldnt care
You can cry if you want to
I wont make fun of you
I wont tell any one
I wont analyze what you do or you should have done
I wont advise you to go and have fun
You can cry if you want to
Well its empty and ugly and terribly sad
I cant feel what you feel but i know it feels bad
I know that its real and it makes you so mad
You could cry
Cry if you want to i wont tell you not to
I wont try and cheer you up
I'll just be here if you want me
To be
Near you